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File me under easily forgotten.
Break could have been worse I guess. I did nothing except watch a lot of tv and eat a lot of food. I could not wait to leave that shithole town. I might as well not exist there.
I got everything I wanted for christmas which is nice, not that I wanted much of anything. Money went towards bills which was sad. It's nice to have money to shop with after christmas, but I am so broke it is ridiculous. I don't know how I am going to pay rent and take my cat to the vet and pay for books (I just now thought of that AHH!).
Our car died on the way back home so now we have no car. Not having a car is the worst thing ever. You can't do anything! Bah.
New Years will be fun:) We are having a couple people over and celebrating here. I just wanna get drunk and have a new years kiss. That is all I ask for.
I really don't have anything of substance to say.
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I don't know why but this town makes me want to kill myself. It's depressing, now I know why I was always so miserable.
Might have something to do with the lack of friends.
I want Lansing back please.
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it's funny that no one has any idea of the deep depression that i have fallen in to.
but then again, how is any supposed to know? i seem happy, i seem okay, but i am far from it.
old ways have come back and my thoughts have been filled with nothing but hurting myself. this is why i should not do life, nothing good comes of it. and i know i will ruin something wonderful in my life, because that is just how i do things. i will probably end up back at home at the end of all of this and be alone like i deserve and always am.
i am so pessimistic.
i fucking hate life. seriously. fuck people. fuck anyone that thinks that life is something great. fuck this shit. sierously.
i hate being drunk and cold.d
i hate being alone.
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I wanna barf.
